About this week
Say, i haven't posted much in a while, and that is because i am occupied with uni. Last week i have an exam hell and i did not survive (or at least my score did not). There's a lot of projects to do and assignments to do. But since it's now the week after the exam, it began to slow down quite a bit, but i am so sure that next week i'll be back busy like always.
I just wished that i have time to draw and do something creative because i missed drawing so much. I have a lot of ideas to do and things i want to write and this blog, and i want to continue doing my silly little projects. Why can a single day have more than 24 hours? Or maybe it's just my time management that sucks, who knows. Gonna search up how to manage time after this w
I know i said that this week has been slowing down, but 3 days has passed this week and i have made uncountable mistakes by now. Like, mistakes that can be avoided but some way or another i ended up making that mistake. And that mistake comes from my poor decision making skills. This is making me lose confidence in myself and in my decisions, making me want to simply let others make the decisions in my life because of so many instances where i immediately regret my decision. I feel like i am turning to Van. If you don't know, Van is my OC who is unable to create decision for himself, and resort to flipping a coin to decide. It is certainly a dumb move, i know. But feel like him rn. I literally have the random picker website put on my pinned tabs so that i can decide whether to continue studying or take a nap. This might be over for me guys.
Also, because of that very same bad decision i made, my life has been a thriller genre with several instances of 30 minutes of heart beating scene where i can't simply do anything and just have to hope for the best. Also, lots of embarassment, shame, guilt, anxiety, and other negative feelings to feel and relish in. I do not know what to make of this. Is this good or bad? because, i mean, i guess life is not that boring now i guess...? ww. But either way, this feelings make me realize the importance of friends because i can quickly forget this feelings when i am around my friends. i love my friends so much.
If you reach this part, thank you for reading my random rants until the end ww