February 9, 2025

😐 Dying with homework i would rather draw this is so over. My AkuNeko doesn't work and error a lot while i am working with Ammon so i can't focus studying... Idk man,,, but i guess i get to eat my weekly takoyaki today and also went out to eat with my sis and also i get to see Ammon with diff hairstyle and the first time i see Ammon shows his whip and i finally know why he has his tattoo and got him to level 9 AND ALSO. I figured that my style is actually Gurokawa!!!! will write about it later if i remember!!! also, someone voted in my wip poll!! I am happy! i wonder where they got my blog because i haven't set up my button yet and i only put the link in like twt and fb and i kinda don't think ppl actually check this blog out,,, so i am happy,,,,

February 8, 2025

😐 Not feeling particularly anything and i am too lazy to do stuff but somehow i drew my tall sexy intimidating women (?) ocs waogh. Still wip tho. idk if will finish it but anyway. Wished i have the same motivation i have for drawing when doing uni homework too.

February 7, 2025

😁 Was supposed to be a free day but anyway i somehow go to uni and nothing productive happened so i break in (for legal reason this is a joke) my friend's house and talk my tongue dry and go home. Was really fun, Also sketched MC sprite!

February 6, 2025

😵 I am wayy to tired today helpp but talking with friends is really nice, i love my friends. AkuNeko has supported me a lot in this trying times (get used to new term fatigue) especially how they gave me tips to not make my shoulder hurts (and my shoulder hurt a lot like a lot lot) so this is peak game right here.

February 5, 2025

😁 Bestest day of my life. Why, you ask? Setsuna parallel gathering is streaming online live painting that day! i have been waiting for this moment for a whole year and it has come true! Will tell the story another time if i remember.

February 4, 2025

😁 Free day, chilling. Tomorrow will be both hell and heaven (i have uni the entire day but i have a live painting i look forward to at the end of the day!) Worked on games(?), like, i installed AkuNeko today, and i have always have an idea to make that type of app but with my oc, so with newfound determination after i see AkuNeko i worked on it! It'll be spoiler so i won't say what's the theme but anyway let's talk about AkuNeko! currently i don't have favorites so i use Berrien but i am trying Ammon rn and man,,, he's peak i fear,,, gave him glasses and now he's more than peak,,, I am sorry for my megane fetish but yea,,, i might like Ammon guys...

February 3, 2025

😁 First day back to uni! was very fun but at the end of the day i got very sad so i put the mood at chill instead. Drew to prove myself wrong and i like it! Very tired.

February 2, 2025

😁 Lazed around all day this is so over for me minna. Went to eat with my sis at the usual sunday market, slept the entire afternoon... I have school tomorrow help. Also, apparently someone voted for my abstract art in the wip poll, thank you i am happy and it give me a boost of motivation i will do it... Did some fixing like around the now page addes some stuff, and I have worked so that i can move my oc wiki from gdrive to here bit by bit, but i have to 1. work on potrait photos, fullbody, and write the story, so for now i will leave it all on my draft w poll about you guys's fav oc of mine might be cool too.

February 1, 2025

😁 Happy day! it was so much fun hanging out and practice dancing with my friend, she also introduced me to VS AMBIVALENZ!!! I really like Fun4re and Illuvista, especially Cion. Made huge progress for Kami no mani mani, we also changed the gokuraku joudo into acchi kocchi by dateken instead because it was too hard for some reason w. I ended up so tired that at around 7 pm i already asleep.

January 31, 2025

😁 Another friend will come tomorrow to my house and practice our dance together so i went ahead and practiced my part, so now i can do 1 minute out of 4 minute kami no mani mani choreo! i can't for the life of me do gokuraku joudo tho, i dont know why but for some reason the fast paced kami no mani mani is just easier (??). Also i was lazying around the whole day, didn't feel like making the game, but feel like drawing but didnt draw. But i didn't feel guilty as much for not being productive, literally just chilling. Oh no tomorrow february oh no

January 30, 2025

😁 Went to my friend's house and apparently she was still having piano lesson when i came so for some reason she just let me use her netflix and her massive TV to watch whatever i want so yeah. Watched The amazing circus and i have massive spark of inspiration. I love it so much. I am willingly want to get inside that universe fr. After that i had lots of fun with her! It's her last day before moving.

January 29, 2025

😔 Tried my best to change some UI related stuff like showing the time or name box in RPG Maker XP, but failed miserably, so i am going to migrate to Wolf RPG Editor instead because i have seen like super customized stuff (Like 1bitHeart) from Wolf RPG Editor. I am just very sad because i have to migrate everything now. But it's ok. I am sure it'll be worth it. Too lazy to migrate to Wolf so i sketched the design for the cast, currently 5 people out of 15 lab workers and much more mutants, but maybe i should make like only 7 lab workers and 6 mutants for now and then add more people and stuff later.

January 28, 2025

😁 Worked on the first intro of the game and it's finished! Still have to work on like the tour of the place (I already did for the dorms! Some is missing tho since i am still don't know exactly who will present in game. Also some of the introduction (Because it was not the character literally there but Miki is the one introducing the character while player looked around the dorms) might ruin the player first impressions of the characters i fear... I probably need to change some up.) and redo the conversation with the mutant since i have better grasp of the MC's and Miki's personality now, i plan to make the MC similar to Micah from RF3 w. I love RF3 humor so i tried adding it, i wonder if it's funny for the player (it's funny for me, though.) All assets is also still a placeholder, i plan to make the asset for the expression soon so that i can feel the dialogue and the expression and make it feels right, and this will make future dialogue making easier because it won't be too ooc if i have the image of the character saying the thing. Though, the design of the MC that i have planned should be redesigned a bit based on recent discoveries of the MC personality. Besides that whole game making thing, i realized that i am super cool. You see, i have insecurities about myself, like a lot, lot, even though i actually pretty cool, i can do a lot of stuff, this blog, game making, 3d model making, drawing, etc. But now i realize that my insecurities is because when i slightly think i am cool, others don't think that i am cool, making me question if i am even cool in the first place. That gap of how i view myself and how other view me is what broke me. Now i realize that people won't be able to see all of me anyway and the only one who only knows myself truly is only me, and that really makes me happy. I am in fact a cool person!!!

January 27, 2025

😐 I am too lazy to do anything helpp but i did make like. 10 lines of code for my game and that's it. I guess that's progress? dunno

January 26, 2025

😐 Ate too much and was going to puke (i did not thankfully) but besides that and how i am literally don't feel like doing anything right now, i came up with good dialogs for Ritami Santou, it's easy because i have set up their dynamic beforehand, i really love their banter, and also got ideas for my OCTP Van x Koara (Koara is my friend's OC!) I plan to make a simple comic out of it, and i have sketched it, but dunno if i will push through. Working on games is too overwhelming rn... Also this log makes me feel like i am working on something and it's great because i often sabotage myself because i feel like i am not productive enough, writing it down like this makes me realize that i am in fact doing something even though it's small. Also i have been avoiding social media recently i wonder if someone miss me... i am active here guys...

January 25, 2025

😁 Working on games but at the end of the day i got dizzy like crazy.

January 24, 2025

😁 Working on my game is too much fun i almost forgot to update. Finally working on my dream game, file got corrupted but i managed to start over quite smoothly. One part of the intro is done and i am happy, the mechanics is working well but not quite what i vision so i need to deal with that too. I don't know how to show up the time on the game right now so for now it'll be just an interactable clock. I said it's so much fun but actually some part can be quite tedious... but when i try to play it and it works i am really happy. Crafting dialogue is kinda what i am not good at as i feel like it's too cringy or cheesy, i need to research more so that it'll feel real (by playing RF3 LMAOO). Assets currently is just grass floor with tree stumps as doors and objects LMAOO. Also worked on some silly oc ideas for my oc Ritami Santou, the one with 3 heads, 3 minds, in one body. Coming up with their dynamic and how they cooperating and manage to live life in that situation is really fun!!!

January 23, 2025

😁 Reminded myself that RF3 exist but i am too lazy to make a new save and play again so i was looking through quotes in game especially gaius's ones (i love gaius why can't we date him) and i once again reminded myself of how real the character feels, they greet us based on times, will mention if we haven't talked to them in a while, very many dialogue so it doesn't feel repetitive and break the immersion, sometimes interesting choices on daily chit-chat, Micah reactions is always nice too, so i went ahead and tried incorporate this mechanic on rpg maker xp and now i kinda know how the mechanism of it work, but since this is a whole ass game and not a continuation of game i have been working on, i quickly overwhelmed with things i need to do, so i ended up not finishing it w. Who knows if i continue with this project. or maybe i should just incorporate the mechanic to my existing project... also kaomojis gets wrecked what the heck i can't put ^^ with a mouth inside or else it'll turn into ^o like this

January 22, 2025

😵 draw aruki happa for a bit, trying to make the chat box work for stream setup but i failed miserably for numerous times and i am so stressed that i just gave up. even though i was really motivated before that... I also added a new blog post after calming down! Friends makes me happy i love oshilosers

January 21, 2025

😐 kinda lazy but i made this tracker so that's something i guess. Looks good so i am kinda happy. i decided to separate the contents and the calendar because i might write very long update and it won't look good me thinks

January 20, 2025

😐 kinda drew, edited some stuff in my oc wiki and edited one singular part of my video